Pat on the back to me today, I didn’t do too badly.

Wed 31st July 2013

Break – 6.15am:  20g oat bran, 13g tableS chia, 1 x pink lady apple, grated.  Pinch of cinnamon

Lunch- 12.50pm: 1 x small ham & swiss cheese wrap, 1 x small slice BBQ chicken pizza.  3 strawberries.  1 x Chobani 0% fat apple & cinnamon yogurt

Pre yoga:  slice gluten/wheat free pumpkin bread toats with peanut butter

Post yoga:  coconut water.  5 x dried dates, 1 dried apricot.

Dinner- 10.30pm:  small portion leftover polenta lamb stew, 1.5 homemade beef burgers (all meat n onion/chilli, no breadcrumb fillers)

Plans changed slightly at lunchtime when I saw the wraps.  There was only one filling choice, and they were more like ¼ slices than ½ slices, so I had one of those, and one of the smaller slices of pizza I could find.  Now, be proud of me, I didn’t eat any of the other pizza (there were like, 5 different one!), nor the chicken wings, nor the home made prawn crackers, nor the cookies (which I LOVE).  So although I said I wasn’t going to have pizza, I think I actually did quite well today.  And I ate it slowly and it felt filling- despite my eyes wanted to eat more my stomach was satisfied.  The yog was for something sweet after, to stop me caving in to a cookie.  Oh, and guess what, one of my bosses noticed I wasn’t eating v much and when I said I was trying to behave she said “but you look like you’ve lost loads of weight recently!”  Well, I haven’t lost v much, but it’s nice to know I look a bit slimmer to peeps, that perked me right up! 😀

10.15pm just prepared some salad for tomorrow, and it’s massive looking, can’t wait to eat it, will be all fresh and delicious!  Wow, I must have changed a bit, cos usually salads do nothing for me.  Love veg, but generally find salads a bit rubbish, but I’ve started to really enjoy them!  Haha, might be that I know cos I can eat a lot volume wise without consuming many calories, that is pretty cool.

Dinner is heating up in the oven (microwave is sparking…. decided it’s prob not a good idea to use it….) and burgers shallow frying with a dash of avocado oil- looking forward to dinner a lot!

Weigh In: Worlds Worst Dieter

  • Start Weight:  9 stone 8lb
  • Goal Weight:  8 stone 6-9lb
  • Weight last week:  9 stone 4 lb
  • Weight this week:  9 stone 5 lb
  • Weight loss this week:  0 lb
  • Weight GAIN this week = 1 lb
  • Weight loss total = 3 lb

Weight is just creaping back on as my weekend eating spirals out of control.  This is so depressing, feels like I’m undoing all my hard work, am only 3lb shy of where I started which makes me want to cry! 😦

Fast Day 22: ditzy day!

Tues 30 July 2013

 

Break – 6.15am- porridge- total 144c

  • 20g oatbran = 74c
  • 200ml skim = 70c

Lunch-  soup, veg n dip & strawberries = 192c

  • Swedey mussaman soup = 91c
  • 107g carrot = 34c
  • 100g celery = 15c
  • Dip: 100g 2%fat Chobani greek yog = 68c

–          100g cucumber = 15c

–          8g chives = 2c

–          teaS olive oil = 40c

–          3g garlic clove = 4

Total 129 / 4 port = 32c

  • 62g strawberries = 20c

Dinner – curry soup – total  151c

  • Cauliflower & lentil curry soup = 82c
  • hard boiled egg = 69c

Fast Day 22 total: 487c

 

I’m drawing a veil under the weekend (including Mon cos I have them off and I include that in my weekend)- too much eating, yesterday I just couldn’t stop, it was a disaster!  So am drawing a line under it and moving on.  I’m not going to document what I ate, suffice to say it involved keep returning to the kitchen cupboard for spoonfuls of salted caramel straight from the tub (made it the other week), and then feeling emotional and demolishing some icecream cake in the kitchen standing by the fridge whilst hoping that the boyfriend wouldn’t come in and catch me in my secret eating…

Yeah, so, moving on.  Weigh in tomorrow will not be good, which I’m getting fed up with myself about.  All the hard work I put in with my fast days just gets ruined cos I binge at the weekends!  And I am sure I say this every week but I want to start eating better in my Feast Days, eat less, eat healthier, more restrained when it comes to treats.  So starting today on my first Fast Day of the week, I aim for this week and coming weekend to be better.  Disclaimer- it’s the boyfriends birthday and we’re doing a coastal walk one of the weekend days, so one of the days will include fish n chips n probably a seaside icecream as his celebration meal, but that will be only one day of the weekend, so I am aiming to be behave the rest of the time!  Nothing radical or anything, but like, 1 glass of wine instead of multiple, one slice of toast instead of multiple, a few squares of dark choc instead of scoffing mint M&Ms by the handful- you get the idea.

 

10.42am:  I made a mistake with the dip when I made it last night- I should have just chopped all the chives n cucumber up and mixed it in… instead I used the blender and it ended up whisking the yogurt up so it was really runny….. put it in the freezer this morning to try and set it a bit more…. Oophs, only just remembered it and now it’s completely frozen.  Messed that one up a bit didn’t I!

 2.05pm:  Well, I ended up eating half the dip, it was defrosted a bit, was a bit crunchy and cold, but alright.  Plus side, as I only ate what was effectively a ¼ of the dip this means I could potentially eat a bit more this evening if I want.

6.03pm: realised I left half my strawberries at the office- was supposed to have had 125g but at lunch I decided to save the rest for dinnertime dessert, and then promptly forgot to bring them home with me.  Was a bit of a ditzy day really!  So I’ve had even more calories to play with when I got in.  I am hard boiling an egg as we speak, yum!

What’s really annoying/weird is that I find Fast Days really quite easy, and yet on normal non-Fast days I can struggle not to eat everything in sight ie- like yesterday.  I seem to be a bit all or nothing, which is frustrating.  Maybe once I’ve been doing this long enough I’ll start to eat less on regular days without thinking about it, but at the minute I need to actively focus on eating less on Feast Days, which is what I am going to try and do this coming week.  That’s not to say I won’t have to odd treat, cos I know I will, but just try to be a bit more considered, and really ask myself “am I actually hungry?  Do I really need this?  Will you feel guilty afterwards?”

Tomorrow will be my first test- the boss is popping to Costco and has very nicely said she’ll bring us all back pizza’s, wraps and cookies for lunch.  My aim is to just have 1 wrap/2 halves of a wrap (ie so I can try 2 different fillings).  No pizza, no cookies.  Seriously do not need cookies after all the salted caramel I ate yesterday.  I plan to take a yogurt as well, so that I have something sweet for afterwards, to stop me caving in to a cookie.  Wish me luck!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Dinner with some lovely RDA ladies!

Friday 26th July 2013

Breakie:  oatbran and oats porridge + 2 blobs of blackberry jam

AM snack:  1 x naval orange.  1 macadamia and a few pepitas.

Lunch: ½ avo with chilli flakes on 2 ryvitas, a few Snapz crackers, roasted veg ¼ portion, and ¼ portion Dukan raspberry cheesecake.

PM snack: 3 squares dark orange chocolate

Dinner:  Chinese banquet at Sky Phoenix restaurant in the city, all dinner shared, so I had a bit of the following: peking duck roll, Mongolian lamb, BBQ pork & BBQ duck, chinese broccoli, rice.  2 x glasses white wine.

 

Ok, since I was going out for dinner I really should have cut all snacks and had low cal soup for lunch, but hey ho, I didn’t fancy barely eating again today so I brought food.

And this will sound weird, but I brought the dark chocolate because surely it’s a better choice than the Swiss Miss hot chocolate I’d surely have if I hadn’t brought any chocolate in.  First ingredient in that hot choc is sugar, second is like glucose syrup or something like that- cocoa comes a hellavalong way down the list, so actual dark chocolate MUST be better for you than that- I realise it’s the lesser of 2 evils I suppose, but sometimes you just gotta have chocolate.

The cheesecake needed eating, as did the roast veg.  I wouldn’t have had them today as they’re both a bit superfluous to requirements, but I hate chucking food away and they prob would not be edible for much longer so it had to be today.

Dinner was delicious, and had a wonderful time catching up with some friends from RDA- think we all spent more time talking than eating! 🙂

Fast Day 21: another successful fast day done and dusted.

Thurs 25 July 2013

Break- 6.10am- porridge – total 144c

  • 20g oatbran = 74c
  • 200ml skim milk = 70c

Lunch- 12.55pm – soup – total 143c

  • Campbells Country Ladle Soup- chicken and sweetcorn = 143c

Dinner – salad – total 213c

  • 60g Spinach = 10c
  • 110g Grated carrot = 35c
  • ¼ portion roast veg = 73c
  • 30g South Cape marinated goats feta = 74c
  • 93g Cucumber = 13c
  • 80g iceberg lettuce = 8c

Fast Day 21 Total:  500c

The morning was fine, but by the afternoon I was feeling like a hot chocolate would have been good, definite munchies for a treat!  Thought I’d have to have dinner immediately when I got in from work, but actually distracted myself with tidying up a bit in the lounge and the spare room.

I’m doing a bit of a photoframe project at the minute, and the spare room’s been taken over by paints and frames- could barely move in there without risk of stepping on something- so I had a bit of a tidy up, and painted 3 more with a first coat, as well as tidying up some of the boyfriends junk into neater piles ready for him to sort out.

The upshot being that the apartment now looks much nicer, I didn’t stuff my face with toast, and I ate dinner at a reasonable time.  All in all, a very productive evening am pleased to say, and another successful fast day done and dusted.

 

Not my best food day ever

Wed 24 July 2013

Breakfast:  oatbran & chia porridge + 2 blobs tiptree jam, 1 slice toast with butter.

AM snack:  4 x dates and 2 x brazil nuts

Lunch:  Monster wrap, with a filling of: homemade guacamole, homemade sundried tomato pesto dip sauce, ¼ portion of my roast veg, grated carrot, some feta, some brie, lettuce.

PM Snack:  hot choc with full cream milk (eek- ran out of low fat!)

Pre yoga snack:  toast & jam

Post yoga snack: 1 x sesame snap, a few strawberries, coconut water.

Dinner:  leftover fajita with basmati rice, 1/2 slice of bread, dollop of guac & lite sour cream.

Ok that looks like a lot of food!  Sadly it didn’t feel like nearly enough, was def one of those “WANT TO STUFF MY FACE!!!!!!!!!” kind of days!!  So I suppose it’s not too bad all things considered, plus I did do some yoga, so that’s got to count for something.   Did feel very hungry today though 😦

Weigh In: same old.

  • Start Weight:  9 stone 8lb
  • Goal Weight:  8 stone 6-9lb
  • Weight last week:  9 stone 4 lb
  • Weight this week:  9 stone 4 lb
  • Weight loss this week:  0 lb
  • Weight GAIN this week = 0 lb
  • Weight loss total = 4 lb

 

Is anyone elses weight loss such a rollercoaster?  Up down up down.  Can be very frustrating!  I thought I’d gained weight this week, but then I found that I hadn’t put last weeks post into the “Weigh In” category so I found that post and realised I’d stayed the same, which is something I suppose in itself, staying the same is good.  It’s not putting on weight at least!