Fast Day 65: survived, although I may need to go to bed early to stop myself from eating more!

Thurs 13 Feb 2013

Break – 6.15am –  1 polenta muffin & milk = 171c
Polenta muffins
  • 7g garlic =10c
  • 2g chilli = 1c
  • 40g red pepepr = 12c
  • 66g zucchini = 10c
  • 21g spring onion = 6c
  • 265g wholemeal self raising = 879c
  • 175g polenta = 591c
  • 1 teaS baking powder – 5g = 0
  • 250ml skim milk = 88c
  • 2 teaS apple cider vinegar = 0
  • 100g butter = 715c
  • 1 egg = 69c
2381 / 17 muffins = 140c per muffin
  • 90ml skim milk = 31c
Lunch – 12.45pm –  total 181c
  • Woolies fresh soup 300g pot- Thai red curry = 181c
Dinner – 7pm – noodles – total 148c
  • 1/2 pack Slenderslim Angel Hair pasta = 10c
  • teaS canola oil = 41c
  • 10g Amoy Sichuan spicy noodle sauce paste = 27c
  • 150g frozen mixed veg = 69c
  • 250ml diet coke = 1c
Fast Day total 500c

Yeah, yesterday…. I’d have been fine if it was anything but zumbarons (macarons) and a zonut (cronut)- seriously, there was cheesecake on Tuesday at work that I passed up despite it being for Jan and Feb’s birthdays (which includes my own!!!!!!!!!!), and there were cookies too yesterday which I would have been able to resist because I have resisted them before- but zumbarons?  That’s like the one thing I couldn’t have resisted!!!!!!!!!!!  Oh well, was so amazingly yummy though so am not gonna complain too much.  It kinda messed with my dinner plans as today was supposed to be a feast day so I was going to do paella, and since I’m new to meal planning I was a bit distressed at having to rearrange my plan, but we had food enough for tonight so I will just be doing the paella on Friday instead, so not a huge deal in the end.

Struggled this afternoon, the leftover cookies and macarons were calling to me, then I had to go to the supermarket after work to pick up some flour…. omg, all the food was calling to me, the crisps, the cheese, the crackers….. somehow I managed to walk out of there without all those things for which I am pleased.  I did however have to hastily rearrange my cals for tonights dinner so that it was quicker to cook (ie frozen veg instead of chopping fresh) cos I needed to eat as quickly as possible so that I didn’t do anything stupid like stuffing my face with naughty foods!  Seemed to have worked, although I may need to go to bed early to stop myself from eating later on…. we’ll see!
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Fast Day 30: Soup, the lazy girls friend!

Tues 27 Aug 2013

Break- 6.15am- total 82c

  • 120g Chobani 2% Greek Yog = 82c

Lunch- 1.30pm – total 182c

  • Woolworths Skinny Soup- Tomato, Lentil & Bacon- 300g fresh pot = 182c

Dinner   – pm – total 234c

  • Woolworths Skinny Soup – Mild Indian Masala Dahl Soup = 234c

 

Fast Day 30 total = 498c

Think I ate so much over the weekend I really wasn’t hungry today.  Usually I get tummy grumbling about 11am, but not today!  Mostly had my lunch break because I wanted the work break rather than food.

The menu for today wasn’t really very inventive, but a busy weekend meant I was quite tired yesterday and couldn’t really be bothered to come up with anything more exciting.  But that’s what soup is for- it’s why I bought them at least- for when laziness strikes!  Maybe Thursday’s Fast Day I will plan something more interesting, but we shall see.

I did make the chickpea blondie brownies at the weekend like I said I was going to, and they were really good actually!  Tasted lovely and nutty, and not like chickpeas!  Great if someone has a gluten/wheat intolerance, I’d really recommend them.  One friend tried them (after some convincing because he’d already eaten a lot of food not long before) and ended up having 3 pieces!  And the other friends asked for the recipe, so I think it’s quite a winner! 😀  I added an extra egg (worried it wouldn’t rise at all with no flour!) and 2 handfuls of chopped hazelnuts.  It had choc chips in, but you could easily substitute that for dried dates- which I might try next time, will make it fudgy and delicious I think.  Will put the recipe (and a photo, cos I had the forethought to take a picture this time!) on here later.

You may have noticed I have been posting a bit less recently.  I’ve been doing it for a while now, the Fasting and the blog, and there’s always so much stuff to do “in real life” that I’ve decided  not to post all my Feast Day eating any more as it’s quite time consuming.  I’m sure I will sometimes, and am sure I’ll be telling you about  momentous weekend eating on occasion, or recipes that I’ve really liked, but I’m not going to be posting every Feast Day now.  Suffice to say, Feast week days are usually pretty healthy, not much different to Fast Days except I usually have a yogurt and fruit n nuts, and some kind of veggie lentil dinner rather than soup.  Weekend Feast Days are where I go more nuts- usually involving cake, cheese and wine.  So if ever I’ve gained weight one week, it’s safe to assume it’s because of my general weekend over-indulgences.  It’s almost September now, and since I want to be fit and fabulous by the time it’s my 30th Birthday in Jan I probably need to start listening to my body more at the weekend and eating less- this is my aim now.

Feel like such a blimp!

Wed 14 Aug 2013

Break- 6.10am

  • Oatbran porridge with 2 blobs strawberry jam

AM snack 10am

  • Mix dried fruit n nut (dates, dried pineapple, dry roasted peanuts, macadamia nuts, pepita seeds)

Lunch – 12.30pm

  • ½ avo on 2 x Vitawheat lunchslice crackers
  • Some goats cheese on 1 x vitawheat
  • Apple & cinnamon Chobani Greek yogurt pot

EXERCISE:  1 hr Vinyasa yoga, in heated room

Post Yoga snack

  • Mango coconut water
  • Slice bread

Dinner

  • toast with butter
  • Beef n veggie risotto

 

2.36pm

Today is one of those days where I feel STARVING and just want to stuff my face with food, even though I just ate a rather large lunch.  It’s odd, because all I want is food, but food won’t actually satisfy me because I will just want/need to eat more.  I hate these days, and don’t understand why I get them.  Does everyone get them?  Is it my body reacting to the Fast Day or to the weightloss in general, trying to make me gain it all back?  Either way, I don’t care, it’s annoying, I just want it to stop!!!  It’s making today feel really hard.

4.17pm

OMG I have been dealing with the most annoying client- had to send an additional quote for a project as there were additional charges and they’re making such a big fuss about it– IT’S $200 AUD JUST PAY IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  It’s not like we said the extra fee was 2 million ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH- stop harassing me by email backwards and forwards!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Is probably a good job I am going to yoga cos seriously, I need a stiff drink after dealing with this woman!!

Post yoga:

Oh dear.  Well.  The only thing getting me through the day was that I was going to allow myself a piece of toast as my pre-yoga snack.  Got home, and there was no bread in the house.  Something in me must have snapped, because I ended up having a complete food binge:

 

  • ½ pack BBQ rice crackers
  • Tablespoon of salted caramel butter icing (we got rid of the cake but still had some of this left over)
  • Tablespoon of chocolate spread
  • A load of banana sweets (those foamy ones, like the shrimps, but banana’s)- the boyf bought them for his post- City to Surf race treat… along with a load of other sweets which are now left in the house for me n my weak-will to scoff.
  • 2 gummy worms
  • A few dry roasted peanuts

 

I am so ashamed of myself for eating all that crap, and can’t believe I am putting this on here.  Was tempted to pretend this didn’t happen and not write about it, but it did, and I want to be honest.  No weightloss is easy, there’s always bumps in the road, and I stumbled over a big one.  Am surprised I didn’t throw up at yoga to be honest!!!

 

Then on the way home the boyf had been to the shops, so I ate a slice of bread at the bus stop post yoga, and our microwave died so we had to reheat dinner in the oven which too forever- didn’t eat till 10.30pm- so I had a slice of toast with butter.

 

I feel like such a blimp!  😦

Fast Day 22: ditzy day!

Tues 30 July 2013

 

Break – 6.15am- porridge- total 144c

  • 20g oatbran = 74c
  • 200ml skim = 70c

Lunch-  soup, veg n dip & strawberries = 192c

  • Swedey mussaman soup = 91c
  • 107g carrot = 34c
  • 100g celery = 15c
  • Dip: 100g 2%fat Chobani greek yog = 68c

–          100g cucumber = 15c

–          8g chives = 2c

–          teaS olive oil = 40c

–          3g garlic clove = 4

Total 129 / 4 port = 32c

  • 62g strawberries = 20c

Dinner – curry soup – total  151c

  • Cauliflower & lentil curry soup = 82c
  • hard boiled egg = 69c

Fast Day 22 total: 487c

 

I’m drawing a veil under the weekend (including Mon cos I have them off and I include that in my weekend)- too much eating, yesterday I just couldn’t stop, it was a disaster!  So am drawing a line under it and moving on.  I’m not going to document what I ate, suffice to say it involved keep returning to the kitchen cupboard for spoonfuls of salted caramel straight from the tub (made it the other week), and then feeling emotional and demolishing some icecream cake in the kitchen standing by the fridge whilst hoping that the boyfriend wouldn’t come in and catch me in my secret eating…

Yeah, so, moving on.  Weigh in tomorrow will not be good, which I’m getting fed up with myself about.  All the hard work I put in with my fast days just gets ruined cos I binge at the weekends!  And I am sure I say this every week but I want to start eating better in my Feast Days, eat less, eat healthier, more restrained when it comes to treats.  So starting today on my first Fast Day of the week, I aim for this week and coming weekend to be better.  Disclaimer- it’s the boyfriends birthday and we’re doing a coastal walk one of the weekend days, so one of the days will include fish n chips n probably a seaside icecream as his celebration meal, but that will be only one day of the weekend, so I am aiming to be behave the rest of the time!  Nothing radical or anything, but like, 1 glass of wine instead of multiple, one slice of toast instead of multiple, a few squares of dark choc instead of scoffing mint M&Ms by the handful- you get the idea.

 

10.42am:  I made a mistake with the dip when I made it last night- I should have just chopped all the chives n cucumber up and mixed it in… instead I used the blender and it ended up whisking the yogurt up so it was really runny….. put it in the freezer this morning to try and set it a bit more…. Oophs, only just remembered it and now it’s completely frozen.  Messed that one up a bit didn’t I!

 2.05pm:  Well, I ended up eating half the dip, it was defrosted a bit, was a bit crunchy and cold, but alright.  Plus side, as I only ate what was effectively a ¼ of the dip this means I could potentially eat a bit more this evening if I want.

6.03pm: realised I left half my strawberries at the office- was supposed to have had 125g but at lunch I decided to save the rest for dinnertime dessert, and then promptly forgot to bring them home with me.  Was a bit of a ditzy day really!  So I’ve had even more calories to play with when I got in.  I am hard boiling an egg as we speak, yum!

What’s really annoying/weird is that I find Fast Days really quite easy, and yet on normal non-Fast days I can struggle not to eat everything in sight ie- like yesterday.  I seem to be a bit all or nothing, which is frustrating.  Maybe once I’ve been doing this long enough I’ll start to eat less on regular days without thinking about it, but at the minute I need to actively focus on eating less on Feast Days, which is what I am going to try and do this coming week.  That’s not to say I won’t have to odd treat, cos I know I will, but just try to be a bit more considered, and really ask myself “am I actually hungry?  Do I really need this?  Will you feel guilty afterwards?”

Tomorrow will be my first test- the boss is popping to Costco and has very nicely said she’ll bring us all back pizza’s, wraps and cookies for lunch.  My aim is to just have 1 wrap/2 halves of a wrap (ie so I can try 2 different fillings).  No pizza, no cookies.  Seriously do not need cookies after all the salted caramel I ate yesterday.  I plan to take a yogurt as well, so that I have something sweet for afterwards, to stop me caving in to a cookie.  Wish me luck!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Weekend eating: margaritas and fajitas!

It has not been the most restrained of weekends with regards to food and drink.  Aside from the margarita’s (wow, home-made ones are preeeeeeety strong!) and fajita’s, there was a whole load of other eating, including a peppermint caramel crumble that used up a pack of candy canes we had left over from Christmas.  It was all delicious, but just too much food, too much excess.  Am getting a bit fed up with myself for eating too much.  Not so much the dinners etc, but everything in between- it wouldn’t be so bad if I stuck to eating at meal times.

I honestly don’t have this problem during the week, it’s just when I’m at home and it’s all there calling to me from the kitchen! 😦

I plan to be the tortoise, not the hare.

Break – 6.15am- porridge:  20g oatbran, 14g chia, 200ml skim, tableS peanut butter all swirled in.

AM Snack – 10.20am:  4 dates and a few macadamia & brazil nuts

Lunch:  ½ avo on 2 x ryvita, with chilli flakes and a dash of lime.  1 x carrot and big chunk of cucumber.

PM Snack:  1 x naval orange.

Cocktail Hour -6pm:  American Honey bourbon & diet coke -ahhhhhh I needed this!

Dinner:  Lentil veggie Mexican spicy gumbo thing with sausage that the boyfriend cooked – very tasty!  With a little bit of rice, bread n butter, and a bottle of rose shared between us.

 

The way I am trying to think about this whole weight-loss thing is that I’m in this for the long run, and as I don’t have loads of weight to lose, it’s probably better that it’s gradual, otherwise it’ll just pile straight back on again.  I have like, 6 months till Jan/my 30th Birthday, which is my big deadline for my weight-loss.  By my 30th Birthday I want to look and feel at my most fabulous, so I do have a little while to do this, slow n steady like.

I dunno, maybe I’m trying to make myself feel better about not losing any weight this last two weeks, or trying to make myself feel better about my lack of restraint on my Feast Days, I don’t know.  But you have to enjoy life too I think, life can’t all be salads and grilled chicken can it?  If you cut out everything that you love that’s too extreme and you will fail- at least I know I would!

I think slow and steady is the way to go with changes in diet, and I think healthier eating on my Feast Days will come, I just have to give it time and try not to beat myself up everytime I eat something “bad.”  Tis just a bit embarrassing though when you have to write up everything you ate and it turns out you ate an entire mountain of food!!! 😛

What’s with the self-sabotage?!

Wed 26 June 2013

  • Break – 6.15am- apple pie porridge:  1 grated pink lady apple, 20g oatbran, 13g chia, 200ml skim milk, 1/2 teaS cinnamon
  • Lunch – 1.00pm:  1/2 an avo with chilli flakes and a dash of lime juice on 2 x ryvita, 1 x ryvita with a little bit of goats feta, 1 x Forme no fat yogurt (peach mango flavour), and a Costco oatmeal raisin cookie….
  • Pre-yoga snack:  1 Vitawheat lunch slice cracker with peanut butter
  • Post-yoga:  Cocobella coconut water – original flavour – to rehydrate. And a slice of wholegrainy bread.
  •  Dinner – 9.50pm :  leftover risotto….. and 2 slice bread with butter.

Decided to snack a bit less today so no snacks at work.

Damn the bosses for going to Costco and stocking up on cookies as well as toilet roll though!!  Really should have resisted.  All my talk about wanting to lose weight this week and then I immediately eat a cookie?  Gah, self sabotage man, what’s wrong with me!?  I had it with my lunch, so I am hoping that this is better than having had it by itself…. only one set of blood sugar spikes if I had it with my lunch…. well, that’s what I’m telling myself.

And then bread with dinner too, as well as post yoga… this whole eating better has gone a bit to pot, except on my fast days!!  To be fair though, considering that today I felt like stuffing my face with food, and then stuffing my face with more, and then just eating and eating and eating, like nothing would satisfy me today, then I did pretty well….